is being honest the best policy?
is putting yourself out there, totally truthful about your feelings a right thing to do?
i'm a confused wreck. and a sick cow to be exact.
stop fucking my mind. stop putting me on a emotional roller-coaster.
i never ask doesn't mean it doesn't bother me..
i just don't wanna put pressure on you..
i just don't want to be a jealous-needy bitch.
but i don't wanna be hanging...
i can't concentrate on anything and everything..
why does it seem so hard for me? whilst u seem that everything's easy?
everyone's telling me to talk to you.
but whenever i try to approach the topic.
you run away.
i'm so scared i'll lose you altogether...
i SHOULD ask you. cos this ain't going anywhere...
ok.
maybe i'm just on an emo streak...maybe i should just STOP finding excuses for you.
its starting to take its toll on me..
i'm losing my grip.. i can't hold out much longer...

maybe i should just give up.
cos it seems you're just taking advantage of the situation.
taking advantage that i'm always there.

maybe .. just maybe...
its time i let go.
cos u don't care.
you never did anyways.. right?

i'll pick up the shattered pieces after.. cos that's what you always make me do...
it's no big deal yen.. it's no big deal..

how am i gonna get through this? its gonna hurt real bad... i know.