Heath Ledger died on over-dose of drugs? What the hell…
Hollywood makes people go mental…
So rich… but mental
Tsk tsk…

Anyways I don’t like changes… not very typical for an Arien…
Ariens are supposed to be adventurous or something..
Not me…
Now, I just want things to go back to being the same…

I know it’s retarded …But yes, I want it the way it was…

I have no idea how my psychotic mind works…
It’s funny how you just give up on things…
It’s funny how you come to a point and suddenly it just doesn’t bother you as much as it did the previous week…
And I think time really works wonders…
Week by week, It slowly makes you forget…
Week 1 has gone by.. I think Week 2 would be better… I hope.

Okay yes, I admit, I do think about it at some point in a day… but I don’t have a heavy heart anymore…
I don’t feel like I need to do something about it anymore…

Cos I did what I did…
I did all I could…
But I guess things just have to turn out the way it did… I understand men have egos..
I used to think pride was everything too… everything I did, or wanted to do… I thought of my pride…
My principles.. my dumb principles..
I’m not saying it’s wrong to have principles..
But I stood by mine a lil’ too much…
I didn’t do what I felt I should cos I always had too much pride… too many principles…
Pride was FOREVER in the way…
Oh crap..

I put mine down this time…
It still screwed up…
So.. I decided..
If it happens, it happens…
If it doesn’t, fuck it…

I tried… all that I could…

Anyways on a lighter note..
I can’t wait to go shopping!! Cos Chinese New Year always gives you reason to buy new clothes..
And I lurve!!, cos I like to find excuses for myself to spend money..bwahaha.. bad habit.
Right.
Hahaha.. Dinner at my place.. (you-know-who-you-doodoo-peeps-are!)
You were supposed to come. But I guess not anymore.

I couldn’t bring myself to say it when I heard his voice.
But I know I had to..

And…
All of a sudden, I didn’t know what I was doing.
All of a sudden, I started to doubt myself.
All of a sudden, I think I felt lost.
All of a sudden, the courage that I had building up.. was all gone..

My mind went into a blank.
I just wanna turn back time and take back the things I’ve said.
But I know (its too late to apologise) now..

i guess i've mistaken you for somebody else..
Somebody who gave a damn..
Somebody more like myself..

Your thoughtless words just took me by surprise..

It became ‘me wanting it that way’..
It became him not wanting me to feel weird.
When that wasn’t what I meant..
I just wanted him to know that you can’t pretend nothing happened when you said what you said so bluntly.
I can’t help it if other people don’t feel, but I do.
I just wanted him to realise he was being insensitive.
I just wanted him to know how I felt.
It’s probably all wrong.. since it turned out the way it did huh…

But it’s too late now, is it?

i wish i had amnesia..

i'm sick of wondering..

i'm sick of waiting..

i'm sick of you running away..

i'm sick of it all...period