I have no idea how my psychotic mind works…
It’s funny how you just give up on things…
It’s funny how you come to a point and suddenly it just doesn’t bother you as much as it did the previous week…
And I think time really works wonders…
Week by week, It slowly makes you forget…
Week 1 has gone by.. I think Week 2 would be better… I hope.

Okay yes, I admit, I do think about it at some point in a day… but I don’t have a heavy heart anymore…
I don’t feel like I need to do something about it anymore…

Cos I did what I did…
I did all I could…
But I guess things just have to turn out the way it did… I understand men have egos..
I used to think pride was everything too… everything I did, or wanted to do… I thought of my pride…
My principles.. my dumb principles..
I’m not saying it’s wrong to have principles..
But I stood by mine a lil’ too much…
I didn’t do what I felt I should cos I always had too much pride… too many principles…
Pride was FOREVER in the way…
Oh crap..

I put mine down this time…
It still screwed up…
So.. I decided..
If it happens, it happens…
If it doesn’t, fuck it…

I tried… all that I could…

Anyways on a lighter note..
I can’t wait to go shopping!! Cos Chinese New Year always gives you reason to buy new clothes..
And I lurve!!, cos I like to find excuses for myself to spend money..bwahaha.. bad habit.
Right.
Hahaha.. Dinner at my place.. (you-know-who-you-doodoo-peeps-are!)
You were supposed to come. But I guess not anymore.