Some people really just have it better when they don't even have to try...
I guess you're happy now, feeling loved. Maybe it's a first. I don't know if i should be hoping its your last.

Probably it's better if one doesn't try. I bet she didn't try.
Or least try as hard as I did.
I don't understand how it affects me still...and i'm losing my grip in fighting it.

I tried my hardest to a point, i didn't know what to do anymore.
I tried my hardest to a point, i lost myself.
I tried my hardest to a point, i cry waking up looking like a wreck.
I tried my hardest to a point, i wanted to be someone else.
I tried my hardest to a point, when the only person i wanted to see smile, was you.
And then you realise, that what's the point in trying when someone else got you even without it. And me? I got nothing but tears and a shattering heart.

So don't try, just don't try at all. I swear i'll never try again. ever.
Cos trying brings you nothing. And when you try and you realise what it brings you, your world crumbles, yet again.