This day… has too many complications and obligations.
How I desperately want to free myself from it all.
But yet, I sit here and click away on my keyboard.

The sun is showing its prowess today.
Scorching and torching everyone… me…
Despite what my common sense tells me, my heart seems to feel like it has been scrunched up like a piece of unwanted paper…
How unwanted do I feel, only my wall in the night knows.

J has been through a tough time.
How much must you put into, to finally get what you deserve.
I thought she got what she deserved, for changing and making it all work.
But she didn’t.
He broke her heart.
I cried when she cried.
I want to hold her hand the whole time.
But deep inside, you know, it’s not going to heal the pain.
It’s so hard to let it all go.
You wouldn’t know if you’ve never put your heart and soul into something.
And when you do, and then it crumbles down on you.
Only cause of his philandering heart…
The pain…. It’s excruciating.

No matter what.
Never lie.
I’ll take the truth, even if it splits me inside.

Finally…
I learnt what kills is …when I’ve been there for a long long time…
Right there…. And right next to you…
And you don’t see me.