i had an amazing conversation today over a couple of wines with Jamie.

and it got me thinking..

*Alone or Lonely?*

You might want to be alone at times.. but.. are u lonely?

Thats a question that really hit me bad..

Alone means, i wanna run away from all the hustle and bustle of life..

stay at home and be by myself..

don't talk to anyone..

but lonely..

its when u are surrounded by hundreds of people in the club..

loneliness comes in a split second..

with all these people around u..

u still feel lonely..

and then u become depressed..

u can have alot of friends when u're partyin'..

but everyone just goes back to their own lives after that particular night...

lying in bed and staring at the skies..

u're lonely once again..

you can be single and happy..

but deep down..are u sure u are even happy?

it says that u have a second mind..

something in your second mind you're constantly thinking about..

constantly affected about..

but..its human nature to make yourself feel better

so what do u do?

push it to the back and tomorrow's another beautiful day..

u try to forget..

but you actually don't..

its there..

all the freaking time..

u just psyche yourself to think u've forgotten..

something that really hit me in today's conversation...

*your own emotions depends on someone else's actions..*

how many times do u get affected by a particular someone who isn't replying your text?

how many times do u get disappointed because u received a text msg.. but it's not from that particular someone u wish it was from?

how many times do u hate hoping for something?

how come we can't control our own emotions?

how come our emotions have to be depended on someone else's actions?

how come we can't feel the way we want to feel?

Well.. whenever there's hope..there's disappointment...

don't we already know that?

but we always still hope..